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867: College Disorientation

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Emanuele Berry

From WBEZ Chicago, it's This American Life. I'm EMANUELE Berry, filling in for Ira Glass. OK, school is back. Come with me now. We're going to Tempe, Arizona.

Man

Hello, guys. Can I have your attention? Guys, guys, guys.

Emanuele Berry

Arizona State University has set up everything you can think of-- karaoke, scavenger hunts, ax throwing, a mechanical bull-- to help new students meet each other and make friends.

Man

Are you guys ready to rumble?

[CROWD CHEERING]

Emanuele Berry

This is international student orientation. There are almost 400 new students here from India, China, and lots of other countries who arrived here alone, looking for any excuse to make a connection. Like, these two uncomfortable-looking guys, Nyle and Saud.

One wears an ASU cap. The other has stylish black glasses. They both have braces. They talk to my coworker Miki Meek.

Saud

We just met right now.

Miki Meek

You guys just met--

Saud

Yeah, we just met right now. We clicked.

Miki Meek

What made you guys click?

Nyle

Well, he was standing there alone. I was standing there alone. So I was thinking, I'm like, should I go? Should I not?

Miki Meek

Is it hard to make yourself go up and say hi?

Nyle

Yeah, a bit. But then I decided to. Yeah. So I just went up there. I just said hi, asked him what his major was.

Miki Meek

Did you feel any relief when he came up and said hi?

Saud

Yeah, of course. There's a thing that I really don't like about myself that I don't really greet people or approach people. I need people to approach me. But at the same time, I really want to meet new people, but I don't know how to do that.

[LAUGHTER]

Emanuele Berry

Over 1 million students from all around the world study in the United States. ASU has over 14,000. Standing near the mechanical bull is Anushka and her newly-made friend Krisha, both from India, both computer science majors.

Miki Meek

How many friends do you think you've made today?

Anushka

So probably my Instagram is increased for 100 followers or something today.

Miki Meek

How about you? How many friends have you made today, do you feel like?

Krisha

I believe 10, 15, 20. I'm giving, like, a rough idea. Bro, you guys are saying 100. At least I'm giving a reasonable number.

Miki Meek

Anushka is having a great time, but there is someone she was hoping to meet here who is not here, her roommate, whose visa was rejected just two weeks before school started. They made a bunch of plans.

Anushka

Making friends together and figuring out which clubs to join, I think that was our initial plan. Probably hiking and some sports kind of stuff. I'm a hockey player, so, yeah.

Miki Meek

Does she know why her visa got rejected?

Anushka

I honestly don't know.

Krisha

People are not that comfortable sharing why their visa got rejected. Because it could be a very personal reason-- something that's Instagram, something foolish being found out because they're screening everything. So if you have your Instagram four years back, you're just joining high school, you must have put something foolish on it that they did not like. So it could be that.

Emanuele Berry

Krisha also had a friend whose visa was rejected. In fact, it was a person she went to for advice on her own student visa interview. She met him on an online ASU forum.

Krisha

My friend got rejected, so I was kind of bummed because I knew him, and we had talked for a very long time, so we got along. So him not coming, I was kind of bummed. And his visa getting rejected was kind of a shocking thing for me.

Karthik

I was already in US in my mind.

Emanuele Berry

This is her friend Karthik. That's not his real name. He talked to me from India.

Karthik

Everything was done. I had my flight booked. I had my offer letter. I had my scholarship. I had my fund sorted. I was already in US in my mind.

Emanuele Berry

Karthik had really planned out his life at ASU. He chose the school because they had one of the few programs specifically for fintech in the country. He'd picked out his dorm room. He knew which clubs he wanted to join, what road trips he wanted to take. He wanted to go to LA. He'd even researched where he was going to eat, picked out an Indian restaurant called Dhaba that he decided would be his go-to.

Karthik

And it looked tasty.

Emanuele Berry

What he didn't account for was a shift in policy by the Trump administration, which wants fewer foreign students coming to the United States. So this year, there are stricter screenings, more visa rejections.

Estimates are 150,000 fewer student visas will be approved. When Karthik went to the US embassy for his visa interview, he saw this play out. He waited in a long line for hours, dressed in a light blue button down shirt, suit jacket and trousers. His research showed that you were supposed to dress up. Finally, he almost reached the interview window.

Karthik

I had five guys in front of me, and I can hear everyone. I can hear them. The visa officer was a lady, and she rejected all five of them. Under two minutes, she did five rejections in two minutes.

Emanuele Berry

Wait, under two minutes, under two minutes, five people--

Karthik

In two minutes.

Emanuele Berry

--she's like rejection, rejection, rejection, rejection.

Karthik

Yes.

Emanuele Berry

And of course, when he got to the window, she rejected him, handed him a slip of paper, sent him on his way. Karthik had to scramble to try and enroll quickly in a school in India.

He really didn't understand why he was rejected. He knew lots of kids got rejected each year, but he thought he was the perfect candidate. He had good grades. He had bank statements that show that he had money to cover his expenses for all four years. And he planned to return to India to run his dad's business. They want proof that you're likely to return home after study.

His rejection-- it just didn't make sense. He's not alone. Things are different on college campuses this year. And it's not just for international students. So many things about college have been upended by a wave of executive orders and lawsuits by the Trump administration. The rules have changed.

In a matter of months, there have been grant suspensions, frozen research projects and funding, DEI bans, accreditation overhauls, hundreds of millions of dollars of settlements with Ivy League schools, and personal battles that have ousted university presidents. Today on our show, we'll hear from people all trying to find their footing right now, puzzling out what's OK and what's not. Stay with us.

It's This American Life. Today's show-- College Disorientation. But before we get started with our first act, there is one thing that I want to note. Today's episode is about college campuses. And this week, there were some big news from a college campus.

Charlie Kirk, a founder of Turning Point USA, was shot and killed. Kirk was a key voice in pushing for a lot of policies and directives rolling out at colleges and universities right now. We've been working on this episode for months. It's not about Turning Point USA or anything related to what happened this week.

OK, so for the first act of our show, we're going to follow one student into college, a girl named Nevaeh Parker in Utah. This story takes place at the University of Utah, not to be confused with Utah Valley University, where Charlie Kirk was shot and killed. This story predates all that. I started following Nevaeh a year ago. This is act one of our show.

Act One: My Black President

Emanuele Berry

Act One, My Black President. I want to tell you about what happened when Nevaeh went to college because I think it shows what this new college landscape might look like. But first, a little bit about who she was before.

From a young age, Nevaeh has been the type of person to see a problem and say, we can fix that. Not just we can fix that, but I can fix that. I'll take that on.

When she was 14 years old, she went to her first protest. George Floyd had just been killed. And she didn't just march. She got on stage, and she read a poem about senseless hate and speaking up. She's like, I, a 14-year-old Black girl in Utah, have the power to combat this thing.

In high school, Nevaeh created a Black Student Union. She wanted a BSU because she and the 10 other Black students-- Utah is pretty white-- were constantly dealing with racist BS from other students and teachers. She'd promote the clubs meetings on the morning announcements, part of her duties as student body president. Of course, she was student body president.

Nevaeh Parker

I would say it with a lot of passion, like come and join! Because people, I feel like their teachers weren't really telling them about it, and so I wanted them to know.

Emanuele Berry

Do you have an announcer voice?

Nevaeh Parker

OK, wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. Let me see. Let me see. Good morning, Royals. Welcome back to our beautiful sunny Monday. This week is filled with lots of fun activities for all of us to be a part of. The Black Student Union is going to have a meeting up in room 302. Make sure to stop by and meet friends.

And that's how I started it is I was--

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh went to the University of Utah. She became the president of the Black Student Union, of course. And she continued to do what she'd done in high school, eagerly try and bring in new students, create a community. Here she is talking to some freshmen while tabling outside the union.

Nevaeh Parker

Hi, you guys! How are you?

Zeinab

Good.

Nevaeh Parker

Good. What are your names?

Zeinab

Zeinab.

Nevaeh Parker

Zeinab? That's beautiful. And what's your name?

Kiara

Kiara.

Nevaeh Parker

Kiara?

Kiara

Yeah

Nevaeh Parker

That's so beautiful, I love that. Have you guys heard of the Black Student Union here? Yes. Period. Have you been to any of our events? OK, T. All right, so you don't need the whole spiel, but do you guys want a tote bag?

Emanuele Berry

The University of Utah's a big school with over 35,000 students, but only a small number of those are Black students, barely over 1%. Black students at the University of Utah do seem to have one thing in common, which is they didn't want to go to the University of Utah.

I heard this from all of the Black students I talked to, including Nevaeh. They wanted to go to Howard or somewhere more diverse or just get out of Utah. But they came around on the University, in part, because of the Black Student Union.

Nevaeh had met some of her best friends at the BSU. They had a real community on campus. It's hard to feel welcome on a predominantly white campus. I know. I went from an extremely diverse high school to a small, mostly white college to play basketball, and I struggled.

I remember literally scanning the tiny campus as I walked to class, looking for any other Black face, and often finding none. I left that school. I never found a place where I felt like myself. When Nevaeh and the other students at the University talk about what the Black Student Union meant to them, I felt a little jealous.

At Utah, they had biweekly kickbacks and movie nights, study sessions, and threw big parties. And they had the Black Cultural Center, the BSU's home on campus, a literal two-story brick house. After a day of often being the only Black person in classes--

Nevaeh Parker

I could literally just walk around through the back door, and I felt like I was wanted there. I feel like having Black friends at the U was really just like, OK, this is what you can hold on to. I feel like everyone there wanted to just be--

Emanuele Berry

You could just be a Black person on a college campus is kind of what you're saying?

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah, literally. Pretty much, yeah.

Emanuele Berry

And then last year, all that changed. The state of Utah passed an anti-DEI law, meaning no more Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion at any state institutions. The law bans devoting any resources-- money, scholarships, mentoring-- to any specific identity group, like, say, a Black student organization. If public universities didn't comply, they would risk losing their funding.

Nevaeh was president of the Black Student Union that was funded by the University. So she has to figure out what does this mean for them? Can a Black Student Union still exist under this law?

These kinds of anti-DEI laws are reshaping college campuses across the country. Utah was ahead of most of the country. They passed their anti-DEI law a year ago. So they were figuring out how this worked before it went nationwide.

And what happened with Nevaeh and the BSU is a preview of how this could play out elsewhere. So far, 28 other states have these kind of laws on the books. Earlier this year, the Trump administration sent an "End DEI" memo to all colleges and universities, saying that diversity, equity, and inclusion efforts violate civil rights laws.

Specifically, it says DEI discriminates against white people and Asian people, and that, quote, "Educational institutions have toxically indoctrinated students with the false premise that the United States is built upon systemic and structural racism. The Department will no longer tolerate the overt and covert racial discrimination that has become widespread in this nation's educational institutions."

The new guiding principle on campuses across the country is now open to all. That phrase, "open to all," it's at the core of anti-DEI legislation. And from that perspective, the problem with a Black Student Union is it doesn't seem like it's open to all. The laws argue that by serving Black students, it's not serving other students. It's discriminating against everyone else.

So what that means for universities across the country is programs are quietly disappearing. The University of Alabama at Birmingham got rid of its scholarships for Black medical students. The University of Wyoming closed down its Black Social Justice Summer Institute. Ohio University canceled its Black Alumni reunion.

Indiana State University dissolved its Black cultural center, so did Wright State and Texas Tech and Weber State, and the University of Cincinnati, and many more. Appalachian State University eliminated positions in the admissions office that were dedicated to Black student recruitment. Tuskegee University no longer has a program dedicated to training Black women to enter the computer science field.

And in Utah last fall, Nevaeh started to see the new law play out on campus. The first big thing the University of Utah did was dissolve its Equity, Diversity, and Inclusion office. Then no more annual conference for Black high school students, no more scholarships or mentoring programs specifically for Black students. The University didn't cancel the Black Student Union, but they did start to restrict what a Black Student Union could be.

Nevaeh Parker

And they basically just said that every single thing would have to be ran by them. And what that meant would be that if we wanted to make any Instagram post, we would have to send it in to them. I was like, well, can we say that we don't support this bill publicly, right? No, you couldn't do any of that.

You can't go against the bill at all. You can't talk about anything having to do with racism. And so we were like, OK, but if we can't talk about racism or Black History, can we keep our name still? Can we still say Black Student Union? And they were like--

Emanuele Berry

Change it to what?

Nevaeh Parker

No, literally, that's what-- we were like, how would you change the name? And their response was basically like, we're going to have to run that by people. But like, mm, we're really going to fight for you to be able to say that. And so it's like, you can maybe just do whatever you want once they just don't hear the word Black.

Emanuele Berry

So every time Nevaeh wanted to host an event, she now had to run it by the University. And when the word Black came up to advertise those event--

Nevaeh Parker

And they would just be like, let's think of other ways to say this so that people don't get upset, and so we don't get flagged by the University.

Emanuele Berry

Like, say what? What's an example?

Nevaeh Parker

Oh, radical. They would like to say radical joy, radical love.

Emanuele Berry

Radical love, radical joy instead of Black love, Black joy.

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah. And so they would just be like, yeah. Just do that. That's the one term I can hear her saying it, one of the staff.

Emanuele Berry

What does radical joy even mean?

Nevaeh Parker

[CHUCKLES] I mean, I don't really know. Honestly, I don't even know. I don't know.

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh kept hearing that anything they did needed to be open to all, which was confusing for Nevaeh because everything the BSU did was already open to everyone. Nevaeh was like, this law is coming for us. She needed a way to save the BSU, so she made a choice.

She thought the only way they could survive as the BSU she loved would be to become an independent organization, to separate from the University, not to be a university-sponsored club. They were going to go it alone. This meant losing all their funding, their advisor, the status they had as the official club for Black students at the University of Utah.

Emanuele Berry

How did it feel to finally make that choice?

Nevaeh Parker

Terrifying, genuinely. Because I was like, if I'm making the wrong decision, it felt like it would all fall on me.

Emanuele Berry

To run the BSU independently, they needed money. Nevaeh has to set up a GoFundMe so the BSU can do basic things. She has to figure out where they can meet.

Before the law, one of the places they met regularly was the Black Cultural Center. But after the law, it was unstaffed and didn't have any funding. Nevaeh was told she'd have to make a reservation to book the space.

Nevaeh Parker

So we didn't really know how to book the space with the Black Cultural Center because for a couple months there, they were telling us, we're not sure if it would be free to students. So they were just basically saying, we might have to pay for it. And we were like, we can't pay for it. We don't want to pay for it. That's crazy.

Emanuele Berry

And that is crazy to ask students to pay so they can gather on a campus they are already paying thousands to go to. They have their first kickback of the year in a classroom they can use for free at the Student Union. Nevaeh tries to organize events that are fun and will bring out students, but won't cost any money.

She emails the Utah Jazz to see if she can get free tickets for a BSU event. It works. They go to a game against the Heat. It's a chaotic start to the semester.

The club is happening. Nevaeh's life is full of tasks-- some of which she expected and some of which she really didn't. For instance, now that the club was no longer part of the University, she was fundraising to keep the BSU alive. Random people from the Salt Lake Community saw that and wanted to share their ideas for how she should run things. So now, she was also a private fundraiser, taking calls before, between, and after classes. She didn't want to miss a possible opportunity.

One time, she got a message from a man who said he was retired and had a background in strategic planning. So she got up early before class to get on Zoom with him.

Nevaeh Parker

He was in his home office, I remember. And he was this old white guy. And he was like, I just hate to see that this is happening. And he was our government has gotten really off the rails. And they're not understanding that DEI is a good thing.

And I was like, OK. We were jiving. It was great to see someone like him speak the way that he was and support us in the way that he was. And so he was like, this is what you need to do. You need to rebrand. You need to talk to this person. You need to go to the LDS Church because they have a big stake in the decisions that are made within the government.

And he was like, a lot of people hated this bill. And he was like, you just need to get the LDS church on your side because they love this and this. And he's a member as well. And he was like, you can talk to them. They'll listen to you. You need to go and tell them.

Emanuele Berry

He's like got to get out there and start lobbying, basically.

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah. No, genuinely. He was like, march up to the gates.

Emanuele Berry

And he mentioned to Nevaeh that he had money.

Nevaeh Parker

He was like, eventually a donation would be in the future, but we need these things to happen first so that more donations can come. And I remember calling my mom and being like, I don't really know why this white guy just wanted to talk with me for an hour about BSU.

I'm not really sure what's going on. And she was like, is he giving you money? And I was like, I think eventually if we do what he wants us to do. I don't know.

Emanuele Berry

[LAUGHS]

This goes nowhere. It does not lead to any donation. Nevaeh and the man never talk again. Calls like these took a lot of time, time that she didn't have.

For the first time, Nevaeh's grades, which had always been perfect, started slipping. Nevaeh started anxiety medication. She was making calculations like, do I do this thing for BSU, or do I do this thing for school? If I skip this assignment, I'll still pass this class. So it's OK, right?

Before the DEI law, the work of making the BSU exist was handled by adults with full-time jobs. Last year, that adult became 19-year-old Nevaeh. Of course, Nevaeh had the support of other BSU members. They told me they really appreciated Nevaeh and that the BSU wouldn't have continued without her. But Nevaeh says people would also text her and say they were too busy or stressed to help out. Nevaeh would always respond kindly.

Nevaeh Parker

Please let me know if I can do anything for you. I appreciate what you've been able to do. I know this has been a hard year. That would be my response. And I just felt like I couldn't say anything else. I didn't really know what else to say because, I don't know, I wanted to beg them to stay, and I wanted to tell them that we really needed help, but it just felt like, I don't know, it felt like I couldn't do that.

Emanuele Berry

Were there moments where you were like, I don't want to do this anymore? I can't do this anymore? Like, yeah.

Nevaeh Parker

This is so hard to answer because, [SIGHS] yes, there were many, many, many moments where I would just be like going to sleep at night and being very, very overwhelmed with the week ahead or the day, the next day, honestly. And I didn't know how to communicate how bad I was struggling mentally. And so it was kind of just this thing where I had to deal with it on my own and just keep pushing through, I guess, because that just felt like my only option.

Emanuele Berry

The University of Utah has had a BSU since the 1960s. Students created it during the fight for civil rights. This new law had wiped out so much of what the BSU had created over seven decades. Nevaeh felt like it couldn't end with her. She felt like she was president of the only organization left to specifically support Black students at the University of Utah, and it had to keep existing.

Nevaeh and the BSU made it to February, Black History month, which meant skate night. Skate night was always one of the biggest events of the year. This year, Nevaeh had thrown a ton of money they'd fundraised into the event.

She bought 70 tickets at the local roller rink, and that's how many people she needed to show up for it to be a success. If they could pull this off on their own, it would feel like the BSU was still thriving on campus. So it's a Saturday night, and the event starts at midnight.

Sandrine Mimche

Hey, guys. It's me and Nevaeh here. We're almost at full capacity, so if you're coming with your friends, come soon.

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh and her VP, Sandrine, are posting on Instagram. Neon purple lights glow in the background as they talk. The two are dressed up-- college night dressed up that is-- cute tops and jeans. Nevaeh has straightened her usually curly hair. Sandrine's is picked out. They seem giddy.

Nevaeh Parker

Please, please, please, especially U of U students, we have a limited amount of tickets, but it's so much for so please come.

Emanuele Berry

Immediately, it's packed. There's a line out the door. And now Nevaeh's biggest worry is that they won't have enough tickets.

Nevaeh Parker

I was sitting at the front, whatever, and I was basically like, oh my goodness. I knew the check coming back was going to be thousands of dollars. I knew it because the office, too-- the people who were working-- the workers at the Classic Fun Center were being like, so you're running out of the wristbands you paid for.

We're going to have to-- either you're going to have to cut people off at the door, or we're going to have to keep charging you for more people. And I was basically just like, well, I can't turn anyone away. Somehow we're going to have to just make this work. We just got to do it because people just-- this is like our big thing. And everyone was so excited about it, too. And so, I was a-- people would say maybe a pushover in that sense. And I don't regret it.

Emanuele Berry

The night cost them thousands of dollars, money Nevaeh had to scramble to raise, but over 300 people showed up.

Nevaeh Parker

I definitely felt like a big sense of, I guess, pride, you could say. This is a huge event. So many people are having a great time and enjoying themselves. And yeah, everyone's just happy and together, and that's what we want. That's what we want it to be.

Emanuele Berry

She pulled it off. She'd protected the thing that she cared about most-- a place where Black students could feel welcome. By the end of the spring semester, she'd tripled BSU membership.

There's something insidious about the anti-DEI laws. They present themselves as civil rights laws, while eliminating so many of the things that the civil rights movement demanded on university campuses. They present themselves as laws to promote inclusion, open to all, while disappearing all the programs and money and support that actually made Black kids feel welcome.

Nevaeh is constantly trying to create space for Black students. The University is literally taking space away. I watched the university do this in real time one day.

The Black Student Union used to have a home on campus, the Black Cultural Center. It'd been one of Nevaeh's favorite places on campus. The house was still there, but the University wouldn't tell them what was going to happen with it. They just kept saying they were working on it and they'd try and reopen it. It just sat there the whole year, often locked. The old Black Cultural Center staff gone.

And then at the end of the school year, the University quietly renamed it. It was no longer the Black Cultural Center. It was now the Center for Community and Cultural Engagement. Nevaeh and I drove by.

Nevaeh Parker

Right to the left right here. Right here. So you can see that sign outside of it. Oh, the doors are open. Should we go in?

Emanuele Berry

Let's park. Let's park. Yeah.

It's a two-story brick house. When we pulled up, the door was actually propped open.

Emanuele Berry

OK, so I guess first just tell me-- oh, it still says Black Cultural Center on the door.

Nevaeh Parker

Yes, on the door. But I think they're in the works of decorating and reassigning things. So on the door, you can see it's a-- what would it be? Like, a vinyl. Like vinyl words on the screen door. But then outside of it, the actual sign now says Center for Community and Cultural Engagement instead of Black Cultural Center. And so I guess for right now, it's a good thing that the door still says it with the vinyl lettering.

Emanuele Berry

OK. When did you hear that the sign was going to change, when that was going to go down?

Nevaeh Parker

We never heard anything about that. And still no one has said that. Are they renaming it now? And that's the questions I have. Because if they're changing that sign and saying that, then what does it mean for everything else inside of it?

I mean, it's just like there's no communication or transparency once again. It's not like there was any public notice, like, we're so sorry to this community. We're taking away the sign, and we're replacing it. Like, we are sorry, and we wish we didn't have to do this. That would go a long way. But, OK, let's see.

Emanuele Berry

We open the door and walk into the house. Nevaeh seems annoyed but ready to show me around.

Nevaeh Parker

Knock, knock. How are you?

Center Staffer

Doing well. How are you?

Nevaeh Parker

I'm good, thank you.

Emanuele Berry

There's a white woman sitting behind a desk inside. She's one of the employees of the new center. Nevaeh brightly says hello to her and begins my tour.

There's a little seating area and a library of books, Black History books, a signed copy of Langston Hughes. She shows me a meeting room, a kitchen filled with snacks, a bunch of closets all over the house. In every room, there is a closet filled with BSU supplies, things like notebooks, pencils, postcards, tables, buckets of candy.

Nevaeh Parker

So you can see, the graduation stoles right there.

Emanuele Berry

The graduation stoles are kind of like African colors.

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And then we have this sign is used for tabling. So it just like--

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh was excited and proud to show me around, but I have to admit it was also kind of eerie. So much of it is exactly as Nevaeh remembered it. Even the former director of the BCC's name is still painted above his office door.

Nevaeh Parker

Because that's the most public place--

Emanuele Berry

It feels like a tour of the house you moved out of or the house you grew up in, where you kind of still know where the stuff is.

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah, but it's also somehow not like in your full-- [SIGHS] It's not fully in your hands. I don't know. It's weird, but is a part of our stuff.

Emanuele Berry

We end the tour at a beautiful mural by the entrance. It's a big white sankofa bird with an African tribal pattern behind it. And then in big block letters next to it, it says, The University of Utah's Black Cultural Center.

Nevaeh Parker

But I mean, yeah, I mean, it's interesting. Actually, now that I'm just pointing it out to you, yeah, the signs are still there. Yeah.

Center Staffer

It was because we did not know what was going to happen.

Emanuele Berry

The staffer at the desk interrupts Nevaeh's tour to explain the sign change.

Center Staffer

With all of the bills and stuff, we're hoping that we could still keep this name The Black Cultural Center, but we're going to have to change it.

Nevaeh Parker

So it is confirmed. Yeah, I saw the sign outside.

Center Staffer

Yes.

Nevaeh Parker

And I was like, huh? So when was that decided? Like, recent?

Center Staffer

Kind of, but yeah. It was a few months ago that it was decided that we do need to change it. And then we just haven't gotten around to it because there's still even more changes. And so the CCCE will be taking over this building fully.

Nevaeh Parker

OK.

Center Staffer

So this will be like for BSU to use a lot, too, and just everything else. But we're still going to keep a lot of what's on the inside, but we do have to change the name.

Nevaeh Parker

Like officially, like, in Google Maps and stuff?

Center Staffer

I don't know how all of that's going to play out.

Nevaeh Parker

But it'll change?

Center Staffer

It will change.

Nevaeh Parker

Do about the decorations on the inside? Is that going to have to be covered up?

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh points to the mural with the bird and the words Black Cultural Center.

Center Staffer

This might have to go. We're not quite sure about--

Nevaeh Parker

No, that's OK. Thank you. No, yeah. I just have-- is it because it says Black? That's why. OK, that's what I thought.

Center Staffer

We can't even use the word inclusive. Yeah we can't say that this is just for Black students so-- because you know, we have to be inclusive without saying inclusive.

Nevaeh Parker

OK. Yeah, no, it's very sad. It's very sad to me.

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh thanks the woman for her honesty, and we start to head out.

Nevaeh Parker

I appreciate it.

Center Staffer

You take care, Nevaeh.

Nevaeh Parker

You, too.

Emanuele Berry

Oh, man, how are you feeling?

Nevaeh Parker

I'm going to cry. This is horrible. This is actually, actually horrible.

Emanuele Berry

What about that pushed you over the edge?

Nevaeh Parker

They're officially changing the name, which I didn't think was going to happen, officially. I don't know. That's crazy.

Emanuele Berry

You're really upset, are you?

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah. No, I am really upset. And I don't want to take it out on her because clearly it's not her fault, but what is going on? Actually, what's going on?

And why didn't they think tell us? And then she said it would be for the Black Student Union to use. If we don't even know, your plans-- sorry.

Emanuele Berry

No, you're good.

Nevaeh Parker

If don't even know your future plans for it, how are we supposed to know that we're welcome there. How are we supposed to think, oh yeah, we're going to be fine when they don't even communicate any of that to us?

And it's not like they don't have my contact. They do. They can ask me to do other things. They can let us know about this. And it's just very frustrating and sad to me.

Emanuele Berry

It's like the sign out front, you're like, OK, it seems like they're changing it, but now it just feels like it's official, official?

Nevaeh Parker

Yeah. Yeah, it does feel official now that she just confirmed that they for sure are changing it. And it just comes back like it just to the exact thing I was talking about, like, the word Black being so weaponized. It is so incredibly weaponized, and that just it blows my mind how-- I don't know. I just wish that maybe their team or something would have just said no.

What if they just said no? What if they just said, no, we're not changing the name? What would happen then? Would they fire everyone? I don't know. I just feel like now, what do we have to lose? Because now we're losing this, officially.

It's not just a talk. It's not just a fear. It's actually happening. And if they're changing the stuff on the inside, too, then it's like, absolutely you're erasing-- you're absolutely erasing the Center. I don't know. I'm actually in shock, kind of like. Is it real? Is this real life right now because it just feels very dystopian to me. [FRUSTRATED SIGH]

Emanuele Berry

Nevaeh is no longer the high school kid making chipper morning announcements. Nevaeh's only 20. She was three years old when Obama was elected president, came of age in the era of Black Squares and Black Lives Matter protest.

In her mind, the country was shifting to a more accepting place. And where we are now, the world she's navigating it's so different than the one she grew up believing in. I talked with the University about the sign change. They said Black gives the impression that the center isn't open to all.

So I asked, can you say the word Black? They said, it depends. If it's cultural, educational, yes. If it's tied to resources, no. They said they had to be careful. They run all their events like Pride Week, Women's Week, Black anything by lawyers.

I just want to say one more thing about the word Black. It's just a word. Who cares? But it's not. It's a word that was decided on by Black people. There's a long list of shitty and degrading words that white people have lodged at us, enslaved and murdered us for. Black is the word we got to add to the list, the one that we got to choose, capital B Black.

We are Black. It's very-- call us by our name. Removing Black, taking that off the list of acceptable words as a way of saying you don't decide, we do.

Nevaeh, though, she refuses to be erased. Even after that terrible year with the anti-DEI law, Nevaeh is still pushing forward, still determined to keep the Black Student Union alive. She just started her junior year. On the first day of school, she's outside tabling for the BSU. A young woman approaches. She's a transfer student from Oregon.

Nevaeh Parker

Hi, you guys! What is your name?

Deja

I'm Deja.

Nevaeh Parker

Deja, you're beautiful.

Deja

Thank you.

Nevaeh Parker

It's so nice to meet you. My name is Nevaeh, and we're the Black Student Union here. Have you heard about us? Or have you-- no? OK, well, you should totally join.

This is our Instagram right here. So if you just want to join our Instagram. Right now, we're just working on increasing, like our engagement and our presence on campus. After some things happened last year with the legislature, we got some of our funding taken away. But now, we have a fully functioning e-board, and we're going to do a lot of events this year. So I want you guys--

Emanuele Berry

In this post-DEI era, I think on a lot of campuses how welcome you are as a Black student-- the difference between feeling like you belong or don't belong-- will depend on if you have a Nevaeh or not.

Miki Meek reported this story with me, additional editing from Robyn Semien.

Coming up, since he's away and I'm hosting, we're going to talk about Ira for 15 minutes. That's after the break from Chicago Public Radio when our program continues.

It's This American Life. I'm Emanuele Berry, sitting in for Ira Glass. Today's show, College Disorientation. In this hour, we're looking at some of the dramatic shifts in higher education, a flood of executive orders and memos from the Trump administration. Let me just run down a few of the new directives for America's colleges and universities.

There was a January executive order called Ending Radical and Wasteful Government DEI Programs and Preferencing, the Dear Colleague letter in February. March, a new task force starts to investigate DEI and antisemitism.

In April, the NIH starts requiring researchers to certify that their colleges do not have any DEI programs. Then in May, the Department of Justice launches a Civil Rights Fraud Initiative. And one of the most dramatic and public interventions the Trump administration has taken on is with a few high-profile, elite schools-- Brown, Harvard, Columbia, and the University of Pennsylvania.

Act Two: The Art of the Deal

Emanuele Berry

And that's act two. Act Two, the Art of the Deal. Something we've never really seen before is a presidential administration withholding millions in federal research money from schools it claims are centers of indoctrination and antisemitism. Columbia University was the first school to have one of those showdowns with the administration.

It withheld $400 million in federal funding until Columbia agreed to a settlement, one that came with a number of conditions. One of those conditions-- the administration wanted Columbia to more formally incorporate a controversial, government-approved definition of antisemitism. It's known as the International Holocaust Remembrance Alliance working definition, I-H-R-A, or IHRA for short.

The IHRA definition was already one of several definitions Columbia considered when it evaluated claims of antisemitism. But now IHRA was officially incorporated, alongside some new, unprecedented government oversight. Professors at Columbia have been trying to figure out what does the IHRA definition mean for them and their classes this year? Ike Sriskandarajah has been talking to ones who are worried and making plans.

Ike Sriskandarajah

The definition itself is pretty straightforward. It's about the length of a tweet-- basically, antisemitism is a hatred of Jews, but it comes with 11 examples that expand on that definition. Most are pretty obvious-- calling for the killing of Jews, denying the Holocaust. Those are antisemitic.

But where it gets tricky are a few examples that blur the line between antisemitism and criticism of the state of Israel. Professors told me that's the part they're worried about. They have to figure out how to teach under this new rule.

I heard about three different strategies. First are the professors who say they can't teach. Marianne Hirsch canceled her class. She teaches comparative literature and gender studies at Columbia.

Marianne Hirsch

So the course that I've taught before is called Imaging War, Imagining Peace. And it's about images of war from the Armenian Genocide and World War I to the present. Are these images really contesting war, or are they still, in some ways, celebrating war? And how the war of images is always part of war.

Ike Sriskandarajah

One of the IHRA examples on her mind when thinking about her lecture on the first day of class-- example 10, comparing contemporary Israeli policies to that of the Nazis.

Marianne Hirsch

I didn't see how I could teach this course without teaching about the present day images of the war in Gaza. I thought about how I would structure my first class. And it would have been about what kind of images of war become iconic?

Little boy in the Warsaw ghetto, the so-called napalm girl during the Vietnam War. And putting those images of children in Gaza next to the little boy in the Warsaw ghetto with Nazi soldiers pointing guns at him is implicitly a comparison of IDF soldiers with Nazis.

Ike Sriskandarajah

Professor Hirsch has dedicated her career to studying the effects of trauma. She's Jewish. And her parents survived the Holocaust. And she's worried about IHRA, partly because in 2023 a student formally accused her of antisemitism.

It was in a class similar to the one she just described. She shared some recent articles related to the war in Gaza that she thought were important. But a student complained, saying they weren't relevant to the class and that some of the reading rationalized acts of antisemitism. The charge against Professor Hirsch was eventually dropped. But she came out of it feeling like she can't run her class the way she wants to. And that was before IHRA. So that's the first thing Columbia professors are doing, dropping their courses.

One of the best known Palestinian scholars, Rashid Khalidi, withdrew his course on modern Middle East History. The professor said in an open letter, quote, "It is impossible to teach this course and much else in light of Columbia's adoption of the IHRA definition of antisemitism."

The second thing professors are doing because of IHRA, tweaking what they teach. Professor Najam Haider teaches courses about Islam, including Islam in the postcolonial world. He talks about scholars like other people talk about celebs. And one of his favorites is someone he is now concerned about assigning.

Najam Haider

Hannah Arendt was very ambivalent about the state of Israel, and she was very critical of Zionism and Zionist organizations during Nazi Germany in the run up to the Holocaust.

Ike Sriskandarajah

I gotta say, Hannah Arendt came up in nearly every call, eight times alone in my conversation with Professor Haider. If you haven't read her, don't worry. It's still early in the semester. The CliffsNotes version is she's an influential Jewish journalist and scholar who fled Nazi Germany. She came to America and famously coined the phrase "the banality of evil" to describe the mindset in Germany that led to the Holocaust. Like Professor Hirsch, Professor Haider is also worried about that IHRA example, the one about drawing comparisons to Nazis, which Arendt does.

Najam Haider

Now, how am I supposed to teach Hannah Arendt? Because her critique of the state of Israel and Zionism can then be spun as antisemitism. So instead of me teaching Hannah Arendt, I have to find a way of getting around Hannah Arendt but making the same points. So then I go to Fanon.

And then I'm talking about Iran. And so what I end up with is a whole class on how Iranian Shi'ism has taken a religious tradition and made it into a political ideology. And if I make that critique of Iran, I can do that comfortably. But if I were to make a similar critique of Israel, it would be antisemitism. And this is what the IHRA definition does. What it does is it creates an exception for Israel, where any critique of Israel is treated differently from a critique of any other modern state.

Ike Sriskandarajah

he's already dropped Hannah Arendt from his syllabus. And Professor Haider says his untenured colleagues are going even further out of their way to avoid controversy.

Najam Haider

I've had colleagues in Islamic studies who have said, they used to teach modern topics, and now they're going to go back and only teach classical Islam because they don't think that they're able to teach modern topics anymore. And what that does is it reinscribes orientalism.

Ike Sriskandarajah

Orientalism sounds like the ramen flavor, but it's a kind of racism.

Najam Haider

And one of the premises of Orientalism was this idea that you don't teach Islam as a living tradition. You teach it as something in the past that is ossified. And so what happens when all your classes on Islamic studies now go back to that?

Ike Sriskandarajah

The third strategy professors are trying is to do nothing. These teachers are not canceling their classes. They're not changing their classes, even though they think the material they teach will be in violation of IHRA, like Professor Thea Abu El-Haj. She's an educational anthropologist who focuses on Palestinians in the diaspora. She's Palestinian, and she's concerned about the ambiguity of the IHRA examples. She wondered if her entire class might violate the IHRA example number 7, denying the Jewish people their right to self-determination by claiming that the existence of the State of Israel is a racist endeavor?

Thea Abu El-haj

I mean, there is no Palestinian scholarship that is not questioning the settler colonial nature of the state. How do I teach the 2018 Nationalities Law, which states that only Jews have the right to self-determination in the state of Israel? Can I teach that? Can I teach Amnesty's apartheid report?

Ike Sriskandarajah

Your answer is, yes.

Thea Abu El-haj

My answer is I have-- if I'm to teach the things I know about and I'm an expert on, I have to be able to teach those things.

Ike Sriskandarajah

Her sister, Nadia Abu El-Haj, is also a professor at Columbia. She teaches an anthropology of war class and directs the Center for Palestine Studies. And she says she's not considering revising anything for IHRA, not in her class, not in events at the center.

Nadia Abu El-haj

So I get the choice we have is, do we dance around it? Or do we just take it head on? And this is my work. And there's nothing I-- I mean, we could either close the Center of Palestine Studies, or we can just take it head on and see what happens.

Ike Sriskandarajah

And your thought on this is the latter?

Nadia Abu El-haj

Oh, absolutely. This has been my work for over 20 years. So this is so central to what I do that I feel like you want to fire me, fire me. I mean, I'm not going to cave.

Ike Sriskandarajah

She's already gamed out in her head how the consequences will unfold.

Nadia Abu El-haj

There'll be a student in class. You'll sign a book. They'll say, this is discriminatory. Now, the accumulation of those charges of discrimination, ultimately, they can fire you. It's never been used that way before, but it's going to be used, and it's going to be the same thing with public events at the center. Someone will come to an event. They will launch a complaint against the center for antisemitism and we'll be in this cycle.

Ike Sriskandarajah

she's a tenured professor who, theoretically, they can't fire except in the most extreme circumstances.

Ike Sriskandarajah

Do you think you have a job this time next year?

Nadia Abu El-haj

I think it'd take a while to fire me, but I don't think it's off the table. [LAUGHS] I mean, honestly, I have no idea.

Ike Sriskandarajah

She has no idea. And all these professors, they're just guessing because Columbia did not just agree to the IHRA definition. Columbia agreed to have a monitor, a person who'd watch over everything that Columbia said it would do under its settlement with the government.

But what will the monitor do? What's his budget? How many people can he hire? It's unclear. Columbia says the monitor does not have oversight over academic content or curriculum. But when I read the terms of the agreement, it says the monitor will have access to, quote, "all agreement-related individuals, facilities, disciplinary hearings, and the scene of any occurrence that the monitor deems necessary," also, quote, "all documents and data related to the agreement." That seems like a lot of stuff.

The monitor, Bart Schwartz, declined to answer our questions. Najam Haider, the religion professor, told me he's been asking his bosses, is this monitor going to be reviewing what I teach?

Najam Haider

When this was brought up with Columbia administration, they said, oh, don't worry about it. But they always just say, don't worry about it. They don't tell you they're not going to be able to do that.

If you ask them a question, and you say, can this person sit in on my classroom, can they just walk in? They're going to be like, we don't think that's going to happen. They're not going to say, no, they can't. There are no limits that have been set to the degree to which they have access to teaching at Columbia.

Ike Sriskandarajah

Were there limits before?

Najam Haider

There would be no monitor. There's no monitors before. There's no one doing this work.

Ike Sriskandarajah

I did talk to one faculty member who falls into none of these three categories when it comes to the IHRA definition. She's in a category that I call, no big deal. And she comes to that conclusion based on the job that she's had on campus the last two years as co-chair of Columbia's Task Force on Antisemitism, Professor Ester Fuchs.

She didn't think the school should formally use IHRA. The task force had a different definition of antisemitism that they recommended. She doesn't like how the government is using antisemitism as a weapon to bully college campuses into all sorts of changes. But unlike her colleagues, she doesn't think IHRA is that big a deal.

Ester Fuchs

I certainly don't want to give the impression that I believe this is simple. Of course, it's difficult, and I understand why people are frustrated. And I understand why there's differences of opinions. But I don't believe the Trump administration is going to be coming in and monitoring this level of detail at all. And it was very clear in the original agreement there is no involvement of the federal government in curriculum, in admissions, or in faculty hiring.

Ike Sriskandarajah

The agreement does explicitly say the government won't, quote, "Dictate faculty hiring, university hiring, admissions decisions, or the content of academic speech." But the agreement also gives the government broad oversight over academic departments, complaints of antisemitism, and admissions. And the agreement requires a review of educational programs to ensure they are, quote, "comprehensive and balanced."

So you can read it Professor Fuch's way, or you can read it the way the other professors I talked to read it. But let me just say this, for Professor Fuchs, the conclusion is unambiguous-- there's nothing to be scared of.

Ester Fuchs

I mean, people do your job, for god's sake. Instead of making students nervous, getting everybody upset, do your job. Figure it out. That's what we're supposed to be doing. Everybody turned themselves into martyrs here. What a bad joke.

Ike Sriskandarajah

So what is going to happen this year? Which way is this going to go? I read the agreement between the government and Columbia again last night. It's sprawling. For a battle that started over antisemitism, the document also covers trans students in locker rooms and international students and admissions and DEI.

And what the agreement does is it lets the Trump administration crack down on any of that if it decides the University is out of line. Maybe it'll choose IHRA, maybe it'll choose something else. Between the withholding of hundreds of millions of dollars, IHRA, the monitor, this administration has given themselves a new set of tools to transform higher ed.

Emanuele Berry

Ike Sriskandarajah is a producer on our show.

Credits

Emanuele Berry

Our program was produced by Miki Meek and Emannuel Dzotsi. It was edited by Chana Joffe-Walt. People who put together today's show include Phia Bennin, Zoe Chace, Michael Comite, Suzanne Gaber, Sophie Gill, Valerie Kipnis, Katherine Rae Mando, Stowe Nelson, Nadia Reiman, Anthony Roman, Ryan Rumery, Frances Swanson, Christopher Swetala, Marisa Robertson-Textor, Nancy Updike, Julie Whitaker, and Diane Wu. Our managing editor Sarah Abdurrahman, and our senior editor is David Kestenbaum.

Special thanks to Meligha Garfield, Sandrine Mimche, Sadie Werner, Kathryn Bond Stockton, Alex Tokita, Karen Kwan, Bilal Kuchay, Mariya Karimjee, Mike Gavin, Azmat Khan, Maryam Alwan, Cameron Jones, Yoni Kurtz, Allie Arcese, Melanie Storey, Tennessee Watson, Madelyn Beck, Kenneth Stern, Noah Lederman, Xavier Westergaard, Chrystal Bell, and Maya Perkins.

Special thanks as well to the Office of International Student Services and the Office of International Studies and Programs at Michigan State University, and Arno Rosenfeld, who writes the newsletter Antisemitism Decoded at The Forward.

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